BerryViolet

Hello. Since the events in my vlog, "My Disney Caballera 2024 Birthday Farewell Day" which took place at Tuesday, January 2, 2024 before after January 7th, where the Viva Navidad ends, I'm still missing the Three Caballeros ever since I interact with them, spend time and hang out with them a lot for 2 - 3 days a week from mid-November 2023 to early January 2024.

I wrote this to you all here to get those feelings out of my chest and mind because I cannot keep bottling up my emotions forever. And now I want to tell the whole truth about my feelings with Three Caballeros and why I kept visiting them so often to bond with them and develop my loving, mutual relationship and friendship with them in Disney California Adventure.

When I kept spending time with Three Caballeros: Donald Duck, Jose Carioca and Panchito, they kept me well happy, loved and no longer feeling lonely and blue at the same time. Every time they are not with me, I get easily blue.

Every time I approach, greet and hang out with them, I instantly brighten up from feeling blue, depressed and lonely. So I treat them as my mental health medicine to my loneliness, depression and the feeling of sad blues. They are my top 1 favorites of Disneyland and Disney TV animation series such as "Legends of the Three Caballeros." Especially I love to dance and party with them.

If you ask me what I love about Three Caballeros and what got me loving them, I'll do my best to be honest about my feelings about them.

When I was little, I used to watch Three Caballeros movie few times and for some reason, I stopped watching after I see some Cartoon Network cartoons.

When I grow up into an adult before first meeting Three Caballeros back in 2022 at Disney California Adventure during Viva Navidad in mid-November, I felt like remembering them from my childhood memories and I start being nice to them to get to know them. They're not so bad for me to hang out and I like them.

They are all nice, friendly, fun-loving, cheerful, charming in their own special ways, fun-making, loving, sweet, kind, hospitable, but silly and funny, and the handsome comic relief characters or bird band. It makes me describe what kind of handsome each of them are.

Donald Duck is adorably handsome because he may be hot-tempered when things had gone haywire and wrong around him to get on his nerves, but he is very sweet, cheerful, optimistic, fun, sometimes playful, and he is relatable to me when we are both introverts that want to do whatever we want alone such as traveling in different adventures alone and even eating restaurants by ourselves. When I dressed as him, he gets excitedly sweet and love to hug me. His hugs are a lot cuter, cuddly, warm, sweet, soul-touching and heart-melting.

I'll never forget in "Magic Happens Parade" where Donald instantly saw me wearing his original blue sailor outfit and a hat as well as holding my Donald Duck plush doll before he run up to me and hugged me as well as hugging and kissing my Donald Duck doll.

I also loved him in "DuckTales" reboot as well and I start falling in love with him as a loving fatherly uncle and brave, tough sailor fighter. Every time he hugged me, I instantly laugh and giggle.

Whenever I dressed as him go by "Donna", I feel sweet, fun-loving, cheerful, optimistic and friendly as him. However, unlike him, I am patient and I get very slow to anger when I get provoked by rude, mean, ungrateful strangers. So I can be slow-tempered sometimes. Like each other, we get misunderstood by others for years when we try anything hard and evident to get them to understand us better. We may love hugging and kissing each other, but deep down in us, we are platonic friends.

Jose Carioca is charmingly handsome because he may be an energetic hugger, but he is friendly, suave, sweet, fun-loving, magically musical whenever he uses his umbrella as different music instruments including blowing into an umbrella like a flute, flirty, benevolent, kind, hospitable, welcoming, calm, collected, confident, stylish, charismatic, outgoing, and fun-loving as a party animal and a Brazillian samba dancer.

When he revealed himself that he came from Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, I look it up on YouTube to see what it was like in 2024 modern times from 19th century historical times. Now I see how amazing Rio de Janeiro and how Jose went through in all of his life in his home city of Brazil. And I feel that Jose was telling the truth about the goodness and amazing wonders in Brazil such as the samba and other musical cultures including the cha-cha.

When I dressed as Josie Carioca the Disneybounding girl version of Jose Carioca, Jose gets instantly smitten, affectionate and sometimes clingy to me out of attractive love. He sees how beautiful I am as Josie Carioca for twinning with him by dressing up as him, except I wore a skirt. It makes me so happy when he treated me with such pure platonic love, hugs and kisses. His hugs and kisses felt sweet, soul-melting, soul-touching and heart-melting so they fill me up with laughter of love.

Every time I am Josie Carioca, Jose will get instantly attracted, smitten, suave, charming and sweet towards me with hugs and kisses. Especially I ask him to dance with him in samba and cha-cha. When I dance with him, it feels a lot funner like he thought in his cultural perspective.

Every time he hug and kiss me, I instantly laugh more highly squeaky and louder than my laugh volume level with Donald (whose hugs cause me to laugh in a soft, slightly low voice volume instead of louder) and Panchito (cause me to laugh in an Anime-ish, slightly high voice volume, but not louder as when I got hugged by Jose for some reason). I treat Jose as a temporary boyfriend and a love interest when I am Josie. But we are actually platonic friends who love having fun with each other, cuddling each other and treating with each other supportive, mutual, warm, platonic love. My heart belongs to Panchito as my most primary, Disney fictional boyfriend and true love.

And speaking of Panchito, he is spunky, feisty, tough, and brave, but welcoming, hospitable, wise, fun-loving, and extremely friendly as well as being energetically social. So overall, that makes him all "spunky handsome." He may be described as rambunctious, boisterous and wildly loud that some people said he was, but he knows when to be calm, revere, well-mannered, serious and smart.

Before I develop a crush and romantic love feelings for him, at first, I thought Panchito as a wild, loud, obnoxious, mischievous oddball when I first see him in Disney California Adventure, where I was going to meet Mirabel Madrigal. Later on, when I first meet him alone, he turned out to be nice, kind, welcoming, affectionate, loving, cuddly that love to hug me, fun-loving, energetically fun and a friendly kisser.

When I get to know him in person, he wasn't so bad after all. I'll never forget my most relationship development with Panchito while interacting with him and posing with him from the day I first met him in person. When I am done interacting with him and seeing him in Viva Navidad Street Parade Party, I start to have a crush on him and my feelings for him start to slowly grow.

Now I will explain to you how I fall in love with Panchito and why I loved him.

It all started when after meeting and interacting with Panchito as well as all Three Caballeros together in a meet and greet spot. I look up about Three Caballeros movie in wikipedia and research before I see the title somewhere is "Legends of Three Caballeros" that was adapted into an animated TV series. So I type it in my Disney + movie streaming app and start watching all 13 episodes.

While I was watching those episodes for me to get to know those Three Caballeros despite Jose and Panchito have different voices because their original voice actors passed away, I love that series a lot and it was cool and epic. In the middle of watching that whole season series, I was watching and observing Panchito to get to know him while I had a crush on him.

Here are all Panchito videos of "Legend of Three Caballeros" that cause me to fall in love with him as my Disney fictional boyfriend and true love.

And so far, Panchito is my most favorite 1 top character of the Three Caballeros.

When I see him fight as both a caballero and a mucho wrestler, he started to spark my heart of love by his so-called "goofy" spunkiness and feistiness. He may seem silly, goofy with a similar brain level of Pinkie Pie from "My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic", suddenly ditzy (in this TV series only opposite to his original movie self), and spacey. But he is still brave, spunky, tough, feisty, kind-hearted and optimistic.

I love when he gets cuddly as a cuddle bug and I want his hugs very badly. So that makes me gone needy for his hugs and I love his hugs more than toys, cakes and any objects because his hugs felt more warmer, extremely mutual loving, more heart-melting, handsome, and very emotionally relaxing enough to calm me down from feeling so sad and lonely.

In the end of episode 5 of "Legend of Three Caballeros", "No Man is an Easter Island", when Panchito thinks about hugging it out and Donald answers, "No!", I feel sorry and I said, "I'm sorry, Panchito. If Donald Duck doesn't want to accept your hug, it's me who want to accept your hug and I'll be happy to accept your offer of hugging me out of my problems."

In the middle of episode 10, "Mt. Fuji Whiz" where there is black magic inflation featured in it, Donald Duck get group hugged by Clinton Coot the late great-grandfather of Donald Duck, Jose Carioca and Panchito said, "Just 5 more minutes" to keep hugging without letting go. I would love to be in his hug to keep me hugged in 5 minutes because his long hug feels a lot warmer, relaxing me, emotionally comforting, fuzzy cuddly, handsome and I feel like I would end up falling asleep in his huggable arms after 5 minutes out of warm contented love and attention.

So I do need his hugs to make me feel better, well loved, happy, warmer, attended by his pure handsome love, and they are medicine to my mental health. All I want was his true love's hugs more than true love's kiss.

He may seem older than me like either he is 10 years or 5 years older than me, but I don't care since I am an adult now in age 29 to 30 (today) and I thought it felt okay to have a loving romantic times and a new "pretend" marriage life with him just like Katherine McPhee and Celine Dion fell in love and married their elder husbands who are 20 or 30 years older than them, who are their younger wives.

I thought it was okay to fall in love and marry an older man while I am legally 30 years old as a legal aged adult now. I'm not a little kid anymore. So I can have a legal freedom right to love Panchito as much as I want and treat him with kindness, love, caring, politeness, thankfulness, honesty, bravery, loyalty, generosity, and unselfishness as a proper, good true love to him so I can prove that I am worthy to be his true love.

Here's another video that makes me love Panchito that I start to find him relatable to me about the religious beliefs of Lord Jesus Christ whose mother was Virgin Mary and his mortal father, Joseph.

When he speaks the history of piñata as well as his religious knowledge and experience about Lord Jesus Christ, it makes me all amazingly surprise and I find his religious beliefs relatable to me. That makes two of us as Jesus believers, who accepted him as our Savior that gave his permanent gift box to all of us: his very own eternal life that we are thankful to have it as a gift from him. It makes me daydream that if Panchito and I were in Mexico together via his flying magic serape, we can take a walk to the church of Mexico where we can talk about Jesus Christ during Christmas events, where he was born as a baby under the shining star.

And here's another thing that got me love Panchito more.

Panchito explained about the God of Aztecs told millions of people to build a city over a lake called Mexico City. This is where the lake is full of Mexico City after the people witnessed the eagle killing the serpent while it was standing on the cactus, which was on the top of the rock and it was way in the middle of the giant lake. It was all according to Panchito.

When I compare his explanation to this research, it did match the legendary history and this proved that Panchito was telling the truth about the history of Mexico according to his flag.

https://education.nationalgeographic.org/resource/tenochtitlan/#

This is why I always trust and believe everything Panchito said about some goodness in Mexico. He can be a best teacher of Mexico history and culture of all time ever. Panchito would never do such crime things involving the events "Crime in Mexico" and he had nothing to do with Mexican crime terrorist attack. He's a good, noble heroic guy I had ever loved and he was never a evil criminal after all. He's a good guy and that's why I loved him. Especially he is different from some Mexican criminals that hurt innocent tourists. If he finds out about crimes in Mexico, he will not be very happy and he is more of a peacemaker.

Surely he may seem like a loud, rambunctious oddball. But he is not what he seems. His true nature or true colors is that he was kind, hospitable, compassionate, welcoming, fun-loving, spunky, feisty, tough, brave and lovable that give guests and fans great hugs. He is a lot different from the Mexican criminals.

I would never blame every Mexican because I knew that not all Mexicans are bad. So I don't hate them at all. In fact, I loved Mexicans, the history of Mexico and Mexican cultures that Panchito taught me so much.

Here's some of the best funniest Disney park moments of Jose and Panchito that makes me love them more. Those caballeros always make me laugh by their comedic, silly antics. They may seem handsome, charming and fun, but they can be funny and silly enough to make us laugh and they never fail to make me laugh.

For example, Jose was playing and touching Panchito's tail. XD

See? Those caballeros never ever fail to make me laugh and I loved them so much as my most top 1 favorites of Disney parks.

And look what Panchito and Jose wore during "NEW Quacky Celebration: Donald the Legend!" Parade at Tokyo Disneyland.

He looks very handsome in his blue outfit color and especially he got a same red belt with a golden buckle as my Violet Beauregarde's red belt. That means we do have a lot in common to each other after all unexpectedly.

If I remember my daydream, I was daydreaming myself as Sailor Moon and Panchito as Tuxedo Mask where we fight Felldrake in a giant monster form.

And another daydream of if Panchito and I were married, we'll become a greatest Mexipino family to create our new family generation of Mexipinos. Our loving relationship is reminded me of Roger Rabbit and Jessica Rabbit because I am a human and he is an anthropomorphic rooster, except Roger is a rabbit.

If I had a child during my marriage life with Panchito, I think a child will be a girl and a crossbreed as in half human and a half chicken bird. She might resembled me, except she has Panchito's beak and she will look like a Rito humanoid bird clan from "The Legend of Zelda: The Wind Waker" including Medli. Of course, she'll have a chicken comb on her head as her "bangs" or "fringe" from her dad, Panchito.

It was just a daydream of what will happen if Panchito and I are married.

I'll never forget my happy romantic love times with Panchito whenever I approach, greet and interact with him in person at Disney California Adventure during Christmas. So what I got for my Christmas at 2023 is love from the Three Caballeros that I love them more than toys, cakes and anything. Especially we have a best happiest, fun date ever during meet-and-greet with Three Caballeros event.

Now you know how and why I am in love with Panchito as my Disney fictional boyfriend and true love that all I want from him is his true love's hugs and kiss. How I feel about kissing Panchito is it was a lot sentimentally sweet, love, heart-melting and extremely strong loving. I always blushed with a smile every time I kissed him during hugs. It makes me feel better whenever I get hugged and kissed by him so I kept thanking him for hugs and kisses to give him my biggest appreciation for his hugs, which I exactly want for Christmas from Panchito: his true love's hugs and even kisses, which are more important than toys and cakes.

*panting* I think that was all of my loving confessions about the Three Caballeros and how I started to love them and became their biggest fan. So overall, I love all Three Caballeros as my platonic family of true loves and my "lovebirds" who will always be here for me every time I visit them in few months of Viva Navidad winter Christmas season. So I loved them all unconditionally and platonically.

I'm sorry for keeping my feelings about Three Caballeros a secret and have them all bottled up. The more I kept my feelings and thoughts bottled up and the more tense stress I start to suffer that will cause me reach my breaking point.

The fact is that not only the Three Caballeros are my healthy, positive distraction to me from my stress, loneliness, sadness and negative emotions, they are my mental health medicines to me. I wish I can see them in person again so I can deserve their huge, loving platonic hugs and even kisses from them that I will ever deserve from them.

Do you ever feel the same way as me when you missed somebody you loved, respected, supported and cared about the most?

I hope what I explain to you will make you remember anything that makes you relate to me by emotions and stuff. Right now, I started to feel better for explaining everything to get them off my chest and talking them out instead of keeping them all bottled up inside me.

Without Three Caballeros, I'm afraid I'll never be the same without them. Except Donald Duck who will be staying with Mickey and friends everyday in Disneyland. Once a caballero, always a caballero.

Hello. When I take a look at my posted vlog videos on my YouTube ever since Spring break, one guy named Anthony Melfi's Webcam on YouTube makes an angry comment that I kept saying "sorry" for a thousand times and he tell me to "get lost."

I was mad at him for telling me that. I didn't know him and I've never met nor interact with him before. He cannot tell anyone to get lost for something they didn't do anything wrong to him and I didn't do anything wrong to him. Something tells me that if he hates "sorry" and apologies, then that proved that he is not nice, not polite and not very respectful.

Instead, he is rude, inconsiderate, disrespectful, discourteous and mean. He even steals some of my videos for his shaming videos that I am extremely disapproved.

And my biggest question is "what's wrong with apologizing and saying 'sorry' for a thousand times"?

All I know is everyone was sorry before and we all sorry because we made mistakes and there are anything we don't know what's going to happen to us. That's why we are not perfect and not good at predicting so we are not foretellers or future tellers. We are just ordinary normal humans and we are not all superpowers in real life. That's why nobody is perfect and none of us are perfect.

So we all have right to say "sorry" when we really mean it by our regrets, remorse and guilts.

When we don't know what to do, we say "I'm sorry" before because we don't know what to do and not everyone knows how because we are like born and none of us are super duper perfect. So it is right for us to apologize and forgive.

If I really am sorry for my serious, honest mistakes, I will do anything to fix my mistakes to reverse the actions, make up for the mess and delays I caused unintentionally meaning I didn't mean to on purpose, and wanted to do anything to cheer and make up with a hurtful someone, a friend and a family member.

For example, "I'm sorry I broke the cup from the shelf where it fell off while I was cleaning the kitchen. I didn't mean to because I didn't know you put it inside the bigger cup where we're not supposed to put little cups under bigger cups. Look, I'll buy another cup from a store that looks like this broken one to make it up to you."

I usually ask for forgiveness, but I thought just asking for forgiveness without fixing mistake doesn't seem enough for me. What I did to make me and a person feel better is I both fix the mistake if I did promise not to do the mistakes again and then ask for forgiveness.

Now you know it is normal for us to feel sorry when we kept saying "I'm sorry" and "forgive me for doing so."

My stepdad once told me, "If anyone who hate apologizing and refusing to accept your apologies, then they are not nice. They are just rude, mean, ungrateful and worst of all, crazy. It's best for you to stay away and block them. If they try to hurt you like assaulting, harassing, threatening and bullying you, call both mom and me to get the permission to call 911 when you are in serious trouble where you got hurt by someone. We can help you stay safe and protect yourself to be safe than sorry. On online, block and report anyone who threatened, bullied and harassed you, okay?"

And then I said, "Okay. Thank you."

He was right. It's a good thing I block that jerk who doesn't know how to change his behavior and attitude for the better change like a character development. He did told me that anyone who refuse to change and fix their bad, mean, rude behaviors and attitudes will soon lead to their downfall and get them in big trouble. Also, I did report his YouTube comments as "spam" for his "bullying and threats."

He needs to learn not to steal my videos without permission. Also, he have to learn how to be respectful, nicer, politer, understanding and forgiving. And third, he has to learn how to say nicer, politer, positive things and words.

If he doesn't want to change into a sweet, good, friendly, respectful, mature, understanding, forgiving person, then he is going to be in trouble and he will break those rules of being nicer, courteous, respectful and polite to others both in real life and online internet.

If he and the others don't like my channel, my stuff and everything I did, including inflation videos that I do them in a favor of my fans who demanded me to and inflatable suit videos are not NSFW like my fans and friends said that they are not NSFW, then they should leave from my YouTube channel, social media and DeviantArt profiles and galleries. They should never bother me and my every stuff. They should not make rude, negative, angry, ranting comments at my stuff I worked hard on for my fans.

They should just leave me alone, forget me and mind their own business!

Do you agree what I explain the reasons why we all say "sorry" before for more than thousand times?

Hello, everyone. This is Berry Violet Couture. I know most of you fans and friends have the right of wanting to know what's going on and you need my heads-up announcement. So I have to tell you.

I am afraid I won't have time to start and finish your commissions because I got a class news announcement message from my two classes' professors or instructors regarding the upcoming midterm, class midterm review together classroom and studies for the final exam of BIOL 310: Physiology and ART 201B: Art History classes of this Spring semester.

So I have to postpone the commissions of the fans I received commission requests from and set them on hold until summer vacation after my final day of Spring semester. In summer vacation, I will get started to continue the commissions late so I am setting them on postponed hold.

Sometimes I do take day-offs to Disneyland with an annual pass to take a break day from cramming for midterm and exams.

Now you realize that I had a lot going on in my life. After all, I do have a huge overloaded educational responsibilities for my 2 classes on weekdays and even editing and uploading my late vlogs for me on both YouTube and DeviantArt before deleting them off from my phone to free up the phone device's GB space to make room for my recorded lecture recording files from my audio recorder device that I got a permission to use it in classes.

I'm sorry. But god thing I wrote down all of my fan customers' commissions into my list of commissions so I won't forget and I will review this commission list on this summer vacation after my final day of my Spring university semester.

Thank you for understanding and cooperating with me with your kind long patience. I'll do my best to finish and continue commissions on this summer after final day of Spring semester this year of 2024. I promise.

Goodbye, everyone. Thank you.

Sincerely, Berry Violet Couture

Hello. When I look up the reasons why my account got disabled by Discord are: • Sending a large number of direct messages in a short span of time • Participating in a server dedicated to spamming Discord • Automating your user account or self-botting • Taking other actions on Discord — for example, joining a ton of servers — faster than humanly possible • Attempting potentially fraudulent activity I didn't do all of those stuff. I remember my account was hacked long time ago and I would never scam anyone. I remember it took me time to fix my Discord from being hacked again. So I'm sorry about my troubles because of the hacker that got my Discord account framed and got in trouble. Now I fixed my Discord before Discord disabled my account, I would need to request my account restoration by restoring my account so my account will never get hacked and cause any more troubles again. And I need a server ID to complete my "submit a request" on Discord. I can't find a way to get server ID. I don't know what I do wrong but I didn't do anything of them.

Now I lost all the RP I role-play with my friends. I didn't even copy and paste the entire RP from my friends' chats into my Google Docs to make them into fanfics. I lost all of them.

There is something I found a shocking plot twist or a secret family truth about me when getting to know my mom's family and my dad's family.

After I seek my family secrets, I find out who I really am and the answer is... I am a Mexipino! Half Mexican and half Filipino!

I always thought I was Filipino for all of my life until I met my dad's siblings' cousins who are revealed to be Mexipinos (half Filipino and half Mexican) and some are Mexicans. I remember they are named Eddie (however I don't know if it was Edward or Edwin since my dad's sister called him "Edwin") and Jose. So there are two Mexipino cousins of my dad's siblings. They passed away of illnesses when I was little.

That was before I found the shocking plot twist or a truth is I am not completely Filipino after all. Instead, I am born Mexipino as in half Mexican and half Filipino the whole time with a half blood of Mexipino from my dad's cousins' brothers and sisters.

My mom was Filipino and my dad was Mexipino since his siblings' cousins are Mexipino and my relatives-in-law are Mexicans. However, my parents speak Tagalog and English while some of my family members know Spanish before. My dad prefer to eats Filipino cultural food while my mom eats both Filipino and Mexican cultural meals like me.

So I thought it all makes sense for me and my family for so many decades before and after I was born in 1994.

That explains why my family and I kept eating both Filipino and Mexican meals for our many decades.

And when my mom told me about my sister, Sheila has a dad, this means I had a half dad and oldest sister, Sheila is my half-sister after all! But I don't care if she was my half-sister, I still love and accepted her anyway like she was my sister. Even though she really is my half-sister and I wonder why nobody in my family told me that my oldest sister has a dad meaning she is my half sister.

I'm sorry it was hard to take in, but finding the secret truth about our half siblings, half uncles, half aunts, relatives-in-law, parents' siblings' cousins, who I am by birth, and our ancestors to seek the answer about who we truly are is not easy and we all get needy of finding deepest family secrets.

I was scared of being rejected and denied from being loved and accepted into friendship and love if I tell you the secret of who I truly am. I am not completely Filipino after all. I am Mexipino which explains why my family and half family eat both Filipino and Mexican food all the time for more than 30 years and the fact some of my Mexican relatives in law visit my family members' birthday parties.

I am really sorry... All I want is another chance from all of you because I still love you and treat all of you equally no matter what race, culture and diversity we all are.